Nirvana的Kurt Cobain为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?能给他的遗嘱我看看吗?

Nirvana的Kurt Cobain为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?能给他的遗嘱我看看吗?
Nirvana的Kurt Cobain为什么要自杀?
Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?
Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?
能给他的遗嘱我看看吗?

Nirvana的Kurt Cobain为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?Nirvana的主唱兼主吉他手为什么要自杀?能给他的遗嘱我看看吗?
kurt年表
　　65-5-16 Krist Anthony Novoselic出生
　　67-1-31 Chad Channing出生
　　67-2-20 Kurt Donald Cobain出生
　　69-1-14 David Eric Grohl出生
　　75-?-? Kurt的父母离异 随其母亲生活
　　78-2-? Kurt的父亲再婚
　　79-?-? Krist家搬到阿伯丁
　　80-6-? Krist到克罗地亚亲戚家生活一年
　　81-2-20 Kurt得到他的第一把吉他
　　83-?-? Krist高中毕业
　　84-5-? Kurt的母亲再婚
　　85-5-? Kurt从高中退学
　　88-1-23 NIRVANA同Dale Crover一起录制小样
　　88-10-30 Kurt砸碎第一把吉他,地点为常青州大学
　　88-11-? 单曲"Love Buzz/Big Cheese"发行
　　89-2-? 在录制完"Bleach"之后 乐队在美国西海岸作短斯巡演
　　89-6-? 推出"Bleach"专辑
　　89-6-22 "Bleach"巡演从旧金山开始
　　89-7-? 录制"Blew"EP（未发行）
　　89-10-20 从英国开始第一次欧洲巡演
　　89-12-30 Krist同Shelli成婚
　　90-2-? NIRVANA开始第二次短期美国巡演
　　90-3-? Chad离队以后 乐队作共7场的美国西海岸巡演
　　90-4-10 违禁的无照演唱会
　　90-7-11 单曲"Sliver"录完
　　90-9-22 西雅图摩托车赛场演出 Dan Peters参与的唯一一场正式演出
　　91-1-1 录制"Anuerysm"和"Even In His Youth"
　　91-4-17 首次演出"Even In His Youth"
　　91-4-30 同Geffen公司签约
　　91-5-? 开始录制"Nevermind"
　　91-8-? 大型欧洲巡演开始
　　91-8-? "Even In His Youth"录相录制完成
　　91-9-13 "Nevermind"发行会
　　91-9-20 "Nevermind"巡演从多伦多开始
　　91-9-24 "Nevermind"发行 在公告牌上名列第144名
　　91-10-25 Kurt和Krist为MTV台录制访谈节目
　　91-11-2 从英国布里斯托开始"Nevermind"欧洲巡演
　　91-11-19 NIRVANA罗马演唱会
　　91-12-? 同Pearl Jam及Red Hot Chili Peppers一起进行短期美国巡演
　　92-1-10 在MTV如录相厅表演
　　92-1-11 在"Saturday Night Live"演出"Nevermind"升到排行榜首位
　　92-1-? 在澳大利亚及日本发行名为"Hormoaning"的选集
　　92-1-24 NIRVANA开始全球巡演
　　92-2-? "Come As You Are"录相录制完成
　　92-2-24 Kurt Cobain同Courtney Love在夏威夷成婚
　　92-6-22 因为胃痛Kurt在贝尔法斯特虚脱
　　92-7-21 单曲"Lithium"同"Nevermind"歌词本一起发行
　　92-8-18 Kurt的女儿Francis Bean Cobain降生
　　92-8-30 NIRVANA在雷丁音乐节演出
　　92-9-? 在MTV台颁奖会上演出"Lithium" 获得两项大奖
　　92-11-? "In Bloom"的录相MTV台榜上名列前茅
　　92-12-15 "Incesticide"专辑发行
　　93-3-? "In Utero"在两周内录成
　　93-4-9 为波斯尼亚强奸受害者义演
　　93-5-? "Sliver"音乐录相在MTV台榜上夺冠
　　93-9-? 在MTV录相奖中夺得最佳非主流音乐录相奖
　　93-9-14 "In Utero"在英国发行
　　93-9-19 "Heart Shaped Box"音乐录相首次播出
　　93-9-21 经过一周拖延 "In Utero"在美国发行
　　93-9-25 第二次在"Saturday Night Live"演出
　　93-10-10 开始为宣传"In Utero"作巡演
　　93-11-18 为MTV台作"Unplugged"录音
　　93-12-12 "All Apologies"的录相在MTV台夺冠
　　93-12-16 "Unplugged"演出在MTV台播出
　　93-12-31 MTV台除夕特辑 NIRVANA担任主角
　　94-2-? NIRVANA开始欧洲巡演
　　94-2-29 在慕尼黑作乐队最后一场演出
　　94-3-4 Kurt在一次自杀未遂后住院
　　94-3-5 Kurt从昏迷中醒来 想吃冰淇淋
　　94-3-8 Kurt自己离开医院
　　94-4-1 Kurt逃离矫正中心
　　94-4-8 Kurt尸首被发现 据法医判断是于3天前自杀
　　94-4-10 Kurt的葬礼在西雅图举行 Courtney朗读遗书
　　94-11-1 "Unplugged in New York"在美国发行
　　96-10-8 "From the muddy banks of the Wishkah"在美国发行
　　Nirvana主唱Kurt Cobain的遗书 [愿他安息]
　　To Boddah pronounced
　　Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile camplainee.
　　This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years. Since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the exitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins it doesn't affect the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury who seemed to love and relish in the love and adoration from the crowd. Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is I can't fool you. Any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100 % fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do. God, believe me I do but it's not enough.
　　I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last three tours I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, pisces Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know. I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be.
　　Full of love and joy kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore and so remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. peace, love, empathy.
　　Kurt Cobain
　　Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
　　Please keep going Courtney
　　For Frances
　　For her life which will be so much happier without me. I Love you. I love you!
　　致巴达：
　　这是一个饱经沧桑的傻子发出的声音,他其实更愿做个柔弱而孩子气的诉苦人.这张条子应该很容易理解.所有的警告都来自于这些年来的‘朋克摇滚101’,自从我第一次介入那包含着独立性、应当称为道德原则的东西之后,你们团结一致的拥戴已证明是非常真实的.我已经好多年都不能从听音乐,写音乐以及读和写东西中感到激奋了.对于这些事我感到了一种难以形诸文字的负罪感.比如说,但我们来到后台,灯火熄灭,人们狂躁的咆哮响起,这一切对我的影响就远不如对Freddy Mercury（“QUEEN”乐队主唱,1991年因艾滋病辞世.）影响那么大,他似乎喜欢而且把玩那些从人群中而来的爱与赞美——那正是我赞赏与嫉妒的一切.
　　事实上我无法欺骗你们,无法欺骗你们中的任何一人.那对你对我都不公平.我能想起的最大罪恶便是欺骗人们,装模作样,做出一副我100%地快乐的样子.
　　有时候我似乎应当在出场之前有台打卡机.我尽了我全部的力量去喜欢这一切,我的确也喜欢.但这还不够.我喜欢这一事实,即我和我们乐队感染和款待了不少人.我太敏感了.我必须清度麻醉才能重获我在孩提时代曾有过的热情.在我们最后的三次巡演中,我对所结识的所有的人和我们音乐的歌迷都有了更多的欣赏,但我还是无法克服我对每个人都抱有挫折感、负罪感和同情.在我们所有人中都有善意,我就是太爱人们了!爱的太多以至于让我感到真的太他妈忧郁,一个略为忧郁的、敏感的、不领情的、双鱼座的耶稣式的人物!
　　我有一个女神般的妻子,她为理想和打动人而拼命努力,我还有个女儿,她
　　让我回忆起我的很多过去,她对那些她遇到的人致以全部的爱和快乐的吻,因为每个人都那么好,而且不会对她有任何伤害.这也让我惊恐万分,以至于我只会瞠目结舌.我没法容忍那种想法,就是弗兰西丝将变成象我这样自我毁灭、走向绝路的摇滚歌手.
　　我快乐的拥有一切,非常快乐.我充满感激.可自打我7岁以来,我总的来说就对人类充满了仇视,仅仅因为人们似乎太过容易地友好相处,而且还会同情,同情!仅仅因为我觉得自己对人们有太多的爱与同情.从我那燃烧而令人欲呕的胃之深处感激你们所有的人,感激你们在过去岁月里所有的来信和关心.我是个太过反常和抑郁的小子!我已经没有任何激情了,所以要记住“与其苟延残喘,不如从容燃烧!”
　　和平,爱,同情.
　　Kurt Cobain
　　Frances 和 Courtney,
　　我会伴你们到老
　　Courtney 请继续前行,
　　为了 Frances ,为了她的生活
　　没有我她的生活会快乐许多.
　　我爱你们!爱你们!