求名为Who am I的一篇英语文章

求名为Who am I的一篇英语文章
求名为Who am I的一篇英语文章

求名为Who am I的一篇英语文章
Who am
By Erik Nilsson (China Daily)
Oyvind Aamot talking with a Tibetan woman in Sichuan during his journey to make the documentary Hunting Down Memory.Courtesy of Oyvind Aamot
Norwegian Oyvind Aamot says his first memory in life was speaking Chinese on a train in China at age 27.He didn't realize he was on a train,that he was speaking Chinese or that he was a foreigner.He didn't know what any of these things meant.
He also didn't remember who he was,where he came from or anything about his identity or past."People would point to me and call me a waiguoren (foreigner),and I'd say,'OK,I'm a waiguoren',but I didn't know what that concept meant," Aamot says in an articulate manner,which doesn't reflect his wild and woolly appearance.
The nearly 20 brain specialists who later examined him described his retrograde amnesia as a "wiping out of his hard-drive".But he'd have a long way to go before his diagnosis and an even longer journey to reconstruct an identity.
Six years later,he'd return to retrace his 2000 route to discover what had happened in the three missing weeks before his memory vanished for which he had no record.He also hoped to learn how he got amnesia.
This journey was filmed and turned into the recently released 80-minute documentary Hunting Down Memory.The film was shown at a small,private viewing at the Nordic Film Festival in Beijing last month and will be screened at the Guangzhou International Documentary Festival in early December.
Soon after he got off the train in Zhangjiajie in 2000,several strangers sifted through his possessions for clues about his identity.He says it was only several years later that he developed a sense of gratitude for these strangers' help.
"It wasn't that I wasn't grateful to them; I just didn't know what (gratefulness) was and what they were doing," Aamot says.
They explained to him that his passport and money were important.They put him on a bus to Hubei's provincial capital Wuhan and told him to call a number they'd found in his backpack when he arrived.
"But the last thing they said before I got on the bus wasn't necessarily the first thing I thought of when I got off the bus," Aamot says.
So he wandered around the city for several hours,taking in an astonishing new world with a childlike understanding of what he was seeing.
"It was Christmas Eve,and some people in red were handing out presents," he recalls.
"I didn't really know what to do with them,so I just passed them along to other people."
He never thought to unwrap them to see what was inside,he says.
After he got tired,he saw a red phone on the side of the street,remembered about the phone number and dialed it.On the other line was his friend Wu Wei,vocalist of the city's celebrated punk band,SMZB.
Wu was surprised Aamot didn't remember him on the phone but figured he was deliriously exhausted from traveling.He became worried when Aamot greeted him with an unrecognizing blank stare when he came to pick up the Norwegian.
"He really didn't get it," Aamot says.But he couldn't detect his friend's anxiety.
"I really didn't perceive so much of people's deeper feelings."
When Aamot also didn't recognize Wu's mother or old friends who visited his apartment,they took him to a doctor.
The doctor confirmed Aamot had lost his memory,and recommended he visit a specialized hospital and the Norwegian embassy in Beijing.
The embassy told him to go back to Norway,and friends helped him use his e-mail and password,which was found on a paper scrap among his belongings,to contact his mother.
He then flew home to Norway,where doctors said his condition might have been caused by brain trauma,narcotics,or toxins from food,plants or animals.A diving accident the year before and a high school case of meningitis might have also contributed.
By the time he was examined in Norway,it was two months after the memory loss and too late to determine its cause.All doctors could find was an abnormality on the back of the brain that was too small to test.
Aamot learned he had been sailing around China with friends when he left the boat to study Chinese.In his last e-mail to his mother before the amnesia,he said he was leaving to search for a "nomadic Rasta horse tribe" in Tibetan areas.
Three weeks later,he awoke on the train.
As Aamot met people from different countries,he slowly began realizing he could speak several languages.Eventually,he came to understand he knew English,Norwegian,Spanish,German,French,Swedish,Danish and Mandarin.
"The words were generally there; I'd know the word for bowl - wan - and table - zhuozi - but abstract concepts like humor,irony and stupidity these things took time to get," Aamot says.
He also said he would instinctively respond in whichever language he was spoken to but wouldn't realize if others changed languages mid-conversation.
"Many Chinese people would say,'hello',or,'how are you'.After that they might switch and I'd keep speaking English,and eventually they'd just walk away," he recalls.
"It was a while before I realized that might be all they knew."
After several years of taking culture and language classes in Norway,and reading what he'd written about China before his memory loss,Aamot decided to return.He got a full scholarship to study Chinese at Nanning University.
"I found Nanning to be quite suitable after I got there," he says.
He later returned to Norway,until he discovered a newfound sense of urgency to retrace his footsteps during those three lost weeks and solve the mystery of his amnesia.
"Very early on,people said,'go back and find out what happened',and I was like,'yeah,yeah'," Aamot says."As I developed more emotions and links to them,that desire grew.I was saying I've wanted to find out for five years,but now it meant something different."
So he set off for the last place he knew he'd been,Chongqing,where a friend told him he'd been heading for Sichuan province's Jiuzhaigou.He spent most of his time on the sojourn asking random strangers:"Have you seen me before?"
Some said they had.
He then headed for a remote location near the area where he believed the ethnic minority he'd sought lived.
While he couldn't find the nomads,he did find a couple who said he'd attended their wedding on Dec 1 and showed him pictures of them all toasting.
He then headed to Zhangjiajie,Hunan province,after someone whom he'd met in 2000 said he'd told them he was planning to go there.
In a village in Zhangjiajie,several people told him he'd fallen twice.Both tumbles rendered him unconscious and one left him hospitalized for three days.
However,the hospital had been razed and the medical records were lost when they were transferred to the hospital in Zhangjiajie city,he says.
He was told that after the falls,he'd stayed in the home of a local couple for three nights.And he also slept for another night under tarps at a lumberyard with workers who'd helped him before leaving on a bus.
After tracking down the couple who'd taken him in,he suffered an emotional breakdown.
"I think it was information overload," Aamot says.
"I was wondering what had happened to that euphoric feeling I'd had for six years,nevertheless,the collapse probably helped me broaden my emotional base."
Since returning from his quest,Aamot has divided his time between living in China and Norway."I feel local in both places," Aamot says."But China feels in a way more like home,because I've spent more time here since I lost my memory."
He works as a consultant,interpreter and press relations advisor assisting Northern European firms and organizations in China.He also runs Cosmic Wind Cultural Collaborations,arranging multi-art projects in various countries.
"It feels so right now to work with international collaboration,because it seems to be in the same spirit as that of the many people who've helped me," he says.
Aamot says that in some ways,he's actually extremely grateful that he lost his memory.
"It's been incredibly fascinating,and it's an experience few people have," Aamot says.
"I can't imagine how it might have been if it happened in Norway.But because it happened in China,I experienced multitudes of different cultures and societies.And I'm thankful for that."
(China Daily 08/12/2009 page18